mIssIN something.......

seems like a long time i dont update my blog.. it not eve 24 hours..... introducing new characterS...
Tulip, sunflower,Daisy,Rose..
all of 'em ere my besties in  palam... my groupmates.. really want u guys to know each of them.. really nice n kind-hearted...luv them all.. got different character but we mix well.. got to go..
c ya soon...=)

cOntinue.....

b.t.s,
<me n Grape>
recently, i'm not too close with Grape...Grape has two besties,Strawberry and kiwi.. even i like him so much,i cant be with him...
a few weeks ago..when we were so close.. i kept texting him,no matter what kind of probs  i had.. "saya lapar la".."sy sakit perut".."sy homesick"."kejutkan sy ek"..'mengade2 'isnt it??? then one day, he text me,a heart breaking msg..."awk.kite bkn muhrim,x boleh la nk msg slalu.."...="(
But, we still having good  reltionship...b4,cny.i got fever infection..i cried at midnite..
guesss who i'm calling??
Grape lor....
my fren,orchid asked  me to confess dat  i love him.. not now lor honey..
got to go..
attendin a wedding wit senior....

Who we nEed most???

As muslim,of course Allah..

then??

for me, my mother.. in da whole world...the most precious thing is my mum.. my precious moment is the time i spent wit my mum...my mum is not only an ordinary mum, she was special<all mums is special in their child's eyes>... my mum gave me everything...she is the one i would love to be wit when i'm sad.. she kept pushing me 4ward.. motivate n always says" Yein anak ma y terhebat.. yein pasti boleh buat"...

life in palam is nothing w/o her...but the spirit she gave make me stay....stay even my heary didnt want to..

next?

my abah 4 sure...

i can feel dat i become more closer to my abah ever since i  came here.. the distance make me love him more n more....in my famili im the only one went to 'sekolah harian'.. n my  bro &my sis  were in Sbp..so my abah pick  me up n sent me to school evryday.. what tiring  job... So, thanks abah 4 everything..
???
my late granny..
Al-FATIHAH...
 miss her a lot... everytime i think of her,..i cry like  a baby...im the beloved grandchild of her.. i'm the only one got jewelry from her..got a story n i think better to write in malay...
'seminggu sebelum..arwah nenek yein datang umah.. arwah paksa2 sepupu yein untk anta  die kt umah yein sbb die kata nk suruh yein potong kuku die,,,yein  pun mcm biase.. rendam tgn die lam air suam, potong kuku..cuci kuku...yein x sangke itu kali terakhir yein potong kuku die... then arwah balik kampung... yein ke sekolah cam biase..pagi 2 yein beria nk g kutip derma untuk kematian ayah pelajar merangkap kwn yein jgk..maklumlah prefect...then masuk kelas 5utarid.. ade sorang student,bau2 bacang yein gak ..y duk sekampung ngan nenek yein tibe2 tanye yein... "nape x balik":yein confius,,, kenape nk blik,,pg lg.. bru je dtg sklh...then die bgtau nenek yein meninggal.. yein x percaya...yein x percaya.. sbab my mum n my abah x ckp pun..yein lari kuar dr klas 2 nangis...jumpe teacher yein..pinjam phone teacher,, call my mum..die kate yer.. nenek yein pergi,,, lam kul8-9 pg...Tuhan saja y tau perasan yein time 2,,,
d umah arwah, org ramai sngt.. yein masuk blik.. tgk arwah  terbaring kt katil.. yein ley  tgk kejap je coz yein x dpt thn .. yein nanges.. even ble tgk beg y nenek yein bwk ke surau.. yein nangis,,, tgk pinggan y yein mkn kt umah arwah,, yein nanges...rindu sangat2 kt arwah.. mase kecik2,, blik je kg. menu utama, nasi goreng kunyit... mkn lam pinggan plastik.. warna pink,hijau...tp skrg da x de.. x kan ade y same...even da lebey setahun arwah nenek x de.. yein masih terasa kehilangan arwah..lau bleh hari2 nk ziarah kubur arwah...cuti chinese nw year ari2.. yein ziarah ngan ma yein..."Ya Allah, tempatkn  lah arwah dlm klgn org y beriman,jauhkan arwah dr azab kubur & neraka kelak"..~Amin~'

Al-Fatihah.....
sorry ... i cant write longer... tears falling down....
to be continue.....

kiJimalu opPA.....

l luv my kijimalu oppa...
my kijimalu oppa is a nice person n flexible..when i'm sad ,he stand wit me, accompany me all nite long..
n when i'm happy, he smile 4 me...
he was true fren of mine..
hopefully my  kijimalu oppa be happy forever n ever...

T+E+S+T= nervous....

next week, i have 2 test... math n physics.. kind of sick wit test.. hate 'em all.... 3 days passed by like wind lor.. didnt do anything n i dont even t8 da time to study... my last physic test was a big failure 4 me.. i did passed the test but not wit flyng color... ashamed n blame myself of my careless.. huhuhu....need all  A.. to get better result, grab  schlarship n further my stdy in c.e...
i have an interstng topic....my lecturer in politics class ask bout the right of  student to join politic while stdying.. do we need"Alku"???
i think students have their own rite to decide whater they want it or not...my background influence me alot in decision making ..my mum is active in polotical party n i find dat its quite benefical... politics is  a medium 4 students to know the real issues, how the mechanism of a government is affected by politics...
to be continue....

i'M in lOve wiT...

detective conan
my conan's collection start when i was in form 3... i found dat it quite interestng 2 read..it is all bout murders& crimes... n conan @shinichi kudo will solve them.. It begin wit Shinichi kudo,a teenage detective.. havin date wit her gf, Ran..he accidently heard  a secret of the black organisation.. then he almost killed after the men of the organisation gave poison...his body become smaller n turned out as a child..then become a kid detective....intersting isnt it?

luv them all.......

dSlR...
actually im not da type dat  fanatic in takin pics like other girls....
even both of my sis are ....i start 2 luv photography after  my sis got her own nikon as a besday present...
feel dat it quite ok lor 2 capture precious moment in life n beauty of Allah's gifts...

my first shot.....

need a mirror to reflect the real me...

cOntinue....

 <Orange vs Grape>... comes to the end.
got new story....
..a few weeks ago, a fren of Orange,Watermelon... make me insane.. i got a small conflicts with one of my classmate..then he mind my bisnes.. become 'Cik kiah' between us.. he judge me like he knew me ever since i was born... he doubt my sincerity ... "kalau ikhlas minx maaf dgn dye.. bkn post lam fb.. nmpk x ikhlas..."he said.
.tripleT &H..<talk to the hand>.... then im getting more annoyed wit boys.. they didnt know girl stuff n please stay away,. mind ur own bisnes lor ...
it doesn't last long.. i think n acts full of maturity..i went 2 apologise 2 da boys .. but then we didnt speak 2 each other..in my class i was the most terrible person in others's eyes.. they think im easly piss off, moody, n not freindly..  i wanna make friend.. the main prob is i dont know how.. i've try to talk to them...
DEEP inside..
i was frustated wit my first sem result.. as i think i got less than what i deserved.. my  mummy said" x pe la.. da  bagus da pointer 2.." but i knew.. i should give my mummy a better one.. evry single thing i do.. it is b'coz of me, my mummy,my abah... i dont wanna be just good... but as a muslim i should be thankful of what  i have... dis sem , i ll try to be better.. still, i good frustation.. my test 1 physics n 2 quiz...i got  low marks... and it bcoz im careless.. im too confident wit myself till i wrote the wrong answer...  i admit it was my mistakes n im tryin 2 get rid of my bad habit... then i do it again in my chemistry test2 ...=(
aigoooo.... breath in........calm down.....getting to use to it.....
 b.t.s,
now, the boys n i was  50-50.. we were frenz but we didnt talk... we didnt smile to each other...
i guess i've done my best to make fren... isnt it???
gonna take a nap...
 to be continued.....