ANother star coming....

 hi... i'm not ok now... stess out.... n i hate to be here... dont know why... but i felt nothing n i'm pissed off...  i wanna cry.. i do hope i have some1 to be wit me... Tommorow i'll go to KL fot 3 days maybe.... i got a call from Yayasan Chemical Company of Malaysia(CCM) .. i was shortlisted 4 the scholarship.. i found it great but at the same time it make me feel nervous... before, i went 4 interview... not once but twice.. Honda Dream fund 2011 n Sime Darby....  i may not as ggod as other.. not scoring the outstanding or  excellent result...  really hoping to get this... dont want to burden my parents...
 
y i aalways stress out? ME... it was all ME... i have the weird behaviour... i easily annoyed n i cant mix well wit people.....so??? i need to be a better person n be more positive rite? i'll try....

Gettin prepared 4 da future....

arini da 14 Ramadhan, tinggal lg 3 minggu before sy register kt Usm. hati da  mula kat "tak nak!"..  x buat ape2 pun lg... isi borang2 pun half way je... lau member2, da ade y beli2 baju baru.. kemas brg2 tp sy x de hati pun nk uat sume tu... bkn malas nk blaja cume da terbiasa duk umah.. tdo smp tgh hari.. mkn sedap2.. bju basuh mesin... kt sane mane ade da sume tu..lagi 1 sape nk duk umah n usik abah n ma sy... sape y nk tmn ma sy pg kedai..... sayang nk tinggal uamh then p penang... tp  ule2 je kot..nanti ok kot.... *meyakinkn diri sendri*

 ptg ni lps solat zohor nk bce balik buku panduan n nak list out evrythng y kn bwk ke sana... ape y blum buat lg n mcm2 la.... bcoz ptg ni sy x uat kuih kot.. ingt nk buat kek buah tp tart telur y smlm lum abes  lg t membazir plak... nekad... b4 pg penang nk uat lg skali tart telur.... y best sngt2.... malas nk ltk pic sbb da upload kt fb...  lps ni blog ni pun pun bersawang agaknye x de org pdli...  nk post entry baru pun da  satu beban da... jenuh tau nk pikir nk tulis apa.... sy not meant to be a good blogger kot..~lalalala~

arini rase mcm nk uat sandwich utk berbuka.... satu lg habit sy yg pelik.. sy masak n masak coz sy suke tp saya hanya akan makan sekeping,, either biskut or cake or ape2 je... sbb sy suke tgk org mkn ape sy masak... dlu time skolah.. bekal sy ialah sebekas tupperware roti,sandwich,nasi goreng.... y penting sebekas besar yer.. ade la member2 y tumpg skaki mkn bekal sy... ade ke patut.. sy rela pg skolah lmbt utk masak bekal wlaupun hanya roti ngan planta...

jeng3,,, azan zohor da.. kn pg solat dlu... x baek nih maen2 bnd yg mengasikkan n melekakan.. t jd melengah2kan solat plak yer,.... t jap lg sy bgtau satu story baek punyer!

life is unexpected...

    hari ni pg tmn my mum beli langsir 4 hari raya.. sngt penat.. tp seronok jgk...  ni kali ke 3 kami menukar langsir dlm mase 5-6 taun ni... tukar angin katernyer...  pastu singgah tempah  cake untuk ari raye + besday ma ... mmg sronok nk raya tp ble fkr da nk smbg blaja.. x nk.. takut x leh mix ngan org2 kt sane n ade x ske perangai kte,,,, + plak.. yein ni sensitive sngt2... manje..mudah nangis... korang doa2 la yein ok kt sane....=)
k la.. da lambt ni.. tdo dlu la..esk nk sahur..esk da ari ke 7 puasa..

F***ing perfect...

 dis is a song by Pink......i enjoy this song so much..it potrays something in me... arini second day of fasting... tp stress sy melampau2 sejak semalam...dis is because borang yg menyakitkan hati n diisi last2 minit.. tp skrg da ok..then ade prob baru plak... ngan ehem2 sy la... sy pun x fhm..kdg2 ok.. kdg2 x...ntah la.. x mo fikir sngt la... nk relax je bln pose nih.... lalala..... tp bcadang bk isi borang usm nanti..oopss..lupe nk bgtau..finally my decision has been made.. i'll go to usm n futher my studies in polymer engineering..wish me luck k... bnyk gak stuff nk kena uat b4 pg nie... hrp2 sempat buat sume lam keadaan  tenang yer.. xceli x nak la serabut2..stress... tension....
   time mcm ni jgk la nk ade kwn baek..as kamu tau sy ade ramai kwn,,tp kwn baek mybe  xde kot..sy rasa lau pg letak sy kt island soram2..bley la idup... nk kate sy anti-sosial .. x jugak... tp x de la yg btol2 rapat...  stkt ni ok.. tp ingt nk cari la satu... lau ade jual kt mane2 ..nk beli... hhahaha....ngantuk la plak....bye la yer..